Wishes and Dreams {([Mitch])}

[Mitchell Cullen]

"So many unkind words are spoken
You see my heart is hurting, but it's still open
I have no other choice but to let you in
So come on in 'cause I know I can take it."
- Jaci Velasquez ~ Glass House

[Mitchell Cullen]

"They say that home is where the heart is,
So follow you heart and know that you can't go wrong"
- Kenny Loggins ~ Your Heart Will Lead You Home

It's been... a long while now since I was adopted into the Cullen family. I still catch myself finding it funny to consider Rosalie and Emmett my mom and dad or Alice, Jasper, Bella, and Edward as my aunts and uncles. I think I only recently started getting used to the idea of Carlisle and Esme as my grandparents. Funny thing is, as much as my head has issues accepting it my heart was at ease with the idea long ago.

I used to think about going home to the village I was raised in. There are several problems with that idea, the major one being I don't really remember the place well. The other one is that that village isn't home for me anymore.

Home, I've realized, has ceased to be a physical location. It's figurative. Home isn't that village, nor is it the town the Cullens found me in, nor is it here in Forks. Home is said to be where the heart is, and my heart realized before my head that home is where the Cullens are for me now. Home is with my family, wherever they may be.

Those are my thoughts for today.

[Mitchell Cullen]

"It's twisted
Messed up
And the more I think about it
It's crazy but so what
I may never understand it
I'm caught up and I'm hanging on
I'm gonna love you even if its wrong"
- Carrie Underwood ~ Twisted

I need to talk to Uncle Edward and Aunt Bella. The more I think about this the more I know it's true. After talking to Alison the other day I realized that we've gone from strangers who stare at each other to acquaintances with crushes on each other and.... well she's human. I know mom didn't like it when Edward fell for Bella. Not liking it is really and understatement. I don't know how she'll react if she finds out about me. I just know it won't be good.

That's why I'm going to tell Edward and Bella, because they will hopefully understand where I'm coming from. Maybe if I can get them on my side things will be less of a mess when mom finds, maybe if it isn't a surprise for everyone it will be less of a mess.

God, I don't know what I'm thinking. This is only going to cause problems. Maybe I'm not thinking, not with my head anyways. That would be a change, Mitch not thinking for once. Considering how much I think the others might actually find that funny.... not that me falling for a human will be something to laugh about.

The worst part is trying to figure out how to tell Alison what I am. I know Uncle Edward didn't tell Bella, she found out on her own. It didn't bother her much, but Aunt Bella's reaction is probably far from typical. Alison, I'm not sure how she'll react if I tell her I'm a vampire. I don't think I'll even get the chance to explain our vegetarianism to her if I tell her that.

I'm not sure. I've already said I don't know what I'm thinking anymore. This whole thing has my head spinning and even though I kinda like that it doesn't make figuring out what to do any easier.

[Mitchell Cullen]

Have yourself a merry little christmas
Let your heart be light
From now on our toubles will be out of sight

The ornaments given by Mitchell to the other Cullens and the messages included. Some are symbolic, others are just something related to that person. It depends on what I could find. Everyone got a silver pine cone ornament along with these.

• Esme
  Golden Arrow: Represents love, your strong trait that you brought with you from your human life.
  
  
• Carlisle
  Compass: Symbolizes navigation and guidance. You are our leader and our guide. Were it not for you our family would not even exist.
  
  
• Emmett
  Bear: The bear symbolizes strength, and you are our strong one. That, and you are also called our giant teddy bear. Of all the symbols for strength it fit you the best.
  
  
• Rosalie
  Candle: Represents love and a light in the darkness. You were the light in my time of darkness and you brought me to the family. It seemed the most appropriate for you.
  
  
• Kacie
  Star: I couldn't find a symbol for you, so I got you a star shaped ornament that represnts your bubbly and bright personality.
  
  
• Haley
  Dog: Dogs are a common symbol of loyalty, a very strong trait of yours.
  
  
• Jasper
  Anchor: The anchor can be used as a symbol of tranquility, and it made me think of your empathic abilities and how you do your best to keep things calm.
  
  
• Alice
  Eagle: The eagle can embody and all-seeing eye. You may not be all-seeing, but we rely very strongly on your foresight and I felt like this would be an appropriate sign of gratitude for all you do with your power.
  
  
• Brad
  Sword: This represents protection, and your protectiveness was the one trait I could find anything symbolic for. It is a strong trait of yours and stuck out in my mind.
  
  
• Brittany
  Feather: The feather represents lightness and a carefree nature, something you possess so I felt it was very fitting.
  
  
• Edward
  Music Note: You were another family member I had trouble finding anything for, so I chose a music note to go along with your love of music.
  
  
• Bella
  Rose Colored Glass Orb: Rose colored glass represents seeing things with a sense of optimism. This ornament represents your ability to see the good in anyone.
  
  
• Nessie
  Pearl Wrapped in a Chain: The chain represents a unity of two things. A pearl represents perfection. You are a combination of two things, of vampire and human. It might not always be easy, but you are family and that makes you unique and perfect in your own ways.
  
  
• Calvin
  Scroll: This represents knowledge. You certainly seem to know who you are and who you want to be, and it's something I respect in you.